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Monthly Archives: September 2008

the condition of

your wickedness slinks under

the cool touch of skin


the heartless love

deep searing emotion / stirs me to the core

my desire overwhelms me / my rationale begins to lose control

your mere presence moves me

your looks caress me / your touch soothes me

how I ache to have you completely / wholly / solely

Yet my heart you will not take / it’s the only one I have to offer

the abuse the hurt the pain / have left it in disrepair

the loves lost have torn / the loves hidden have bruised

the loves rejected have beaten / the loves forced have scarred

But I give to you all I have / to take, to keep / to shape, to mold

Take me and hold me

love me as we’ve never known

But take my heart please / for it’s too much for me to bear

my failing heart can take no more

It bleeds / It weeps

As you walk away / the light dims / and darkness rushes in

and I am as I was before

A decrepit, wretched, lost soul

forever longing / eternally searching / for the one

who will take my heart / who will take my life

as ugly and horrid as it is / and show me what love is

what love can do / to make me believe

in what I’ve not know / in what I’ve not felt

As your presence fades / life seeps from me

I realize

that I never

had a heart to give

will you be there?

i’m free-floating in a dream.

my life is all a cloud now.

i can’t see very far,

but my vision is good.

thickness varies as i continue.

in sparse spots, my strength weakens.

when my sight is close, my power increases,

but the haze will not last forever.

i’m feeling once again the energy i need.

soon the veil of security will fade.

the mist of what is left will be what i have.

can i endure when it’s gone?

the vitality of life strikes against me.

i flinch from the cruelness of it

unjust and unfair, i take it all in

but soon i will fall

as i sink back into the old patterns

reality surrounds me almost suffocating me

i become awake in the full sense

not quite clear-headed, but aware to it

my comprehension takes me down

i fight and struggle, but to no avail

i am here, alone; with one to find…

and that one is you.

will you be there?

evil sneers beneath

as your slanted gaze narrows

hanging ever so