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Monthly Archives: October 2008

the man in my Dreams

who is this man in my Dreams?

he is so familiar, yet a stranger.

i know the face, the touch,

but is not my lover.

my heart wanders like a blind fool.

yet can always return to it’s love.

horrid lust, when will my heart be content to stay.

and why, why is there that other man.

o ye wretched heart, there is no chain that binds you

you chose freely your lover

an oath seals your fate

take comfort and rest.

yet when you are the most joyful in your lover

as you lie to sleep, He comes back to haunt you.

why do you let him. why can’t you make him leave.

there is no love in you for him. you chose.

now be satisfied.

who can you turn to. what to do.

face him. fear him. all i want is to feel the love.

set me free, please i beg you. i can’t let you go

until you do.

Dreams, how i hate sleep. as i do, i just can’t

can’t bring myself to wake. yet when i arise,

i confront reality.

my heart breaks.


unshackled darkness

love. lust.

how you hunger for my body, my soul..

it drives you mad, knowing you’re so close to me.

yet not entirely.

you want me, you can have me.

what more do you need.

i have given freely all i am.

but it seems you want more.

i am a naked spirit before you.

i have you all the time.

all you have to do is choose.

i will be yours completely.

please make me yours.

nothing held back.

why aren’t you satisfied.

i’ve sacrificed all for you.

you see before you a bare body.

it wants to love you and does the only way it knows how.

but it’s not enough.

failure. loss.

oh, the ache deep down suffocates my soul

taking the light out.

only darkness remains.

the inevitable tide

your shadow haunts me, making me crazy

i need you so desperately

my body and soul aches for you

your caress tortures me as memories take me away

how can i ever let you go

please don’t fall in love until i get over you

you’ll break my heart even more

you’ve found my lost spirit; it is yours, has always been

your presence courses through my veins

i long to love you like you want me to

the obstacle is nothing we cannot overcome

but only with each other are we able to conquer it

you shiver with expectancy, urgency

i know you need me, why won’t you admit

you lie to yourself, saying i mean nothing

we both know the truth, cleave unto me as i do you

the one thing i can’t live without

is the one thing i lived my whole life for

i have waited for you for so long

and i still wait

eternity may come and go

my soul will not rest

you tease me with mere morsels of love, joy

i beg you to give me your all

i can feel you in me so much

you satisfy my entire being

i yearn to fulfill your desire

why won’t you allow me

i have grown weary and insane

but still i find strength for you

you are all i have ever needed, wanted

i wish i could make you see i belong to you

ask anything of me and i will

your existence lingers; taunts and intertwines mine

never engulfing me, just like the ocean tide

is this the price i must pay for you


rushing through the still quiet

deafness of searching